29 November, 2009

Love Song

I spent the last few days convinced myself that he doesn't matter anymore.
Yet this morning I woken up and immediately thinking of him...
I thought I have lost my ability to feel
I thought I have gone numb
But I had gone back and forth playing love songs
and spoiled my mind away...

For me love always happen accidentally, in an unexpected way. Despite my-oh-not-so-young age, I only have been in love four times; the first one when I was in elementary school, the second one was with a boy in my confirmation class, the third one when I was 21, and the fourth happened here in Maastricht. 

My first to third love were these light-skinned good looking men, so I first thought I have these 'shallow' taste when it comes to men, heavily influenced by his physical appearance. But this time the story is more like that Tiffany song..."love is blind". 

Now, I fall by what I sense in him; a leadership quality in him, heavy burden he carries in his shoulder, his warm heart and kindness, plus a sharp mind that is able to see through people nonsense as well absorbing science theory. 

But how many women could be lucky enough to dating her crush? No matter what continent it is, relationship usually starts by men.

Men get to choose, women learn to love. Men love with his head, women love with all her heart. 

And then, after seeing his woman at her worst moment, some men could easily retracts his love. 

That's why a woman in love is a woman in danger, a woman at risk of being miserable, of being jealous, of being hurt. A woman who opens her heart is a woman putting herself in a very fragile state. 

As sick as it sounds, the world goes exactly like those Patti Smith's lyrics..."baby sometimes love just ain't enough". 

Because in order to stay in love and always be loved by her partner, a woman needs strategy.

28 November, 2009

A 3-in-1 Day: Aachen - Cologne - Dusseldorf

We --a group of Indonesian students in Maastricht-- were invited for a dinner at Tante Jane's place. As an Indonesian we will always miss our Indo food, as a student we shall not miss the chance to enjoy a free-meal. So dinner at Tante Jane's is apparently one of the highlight moment for Indonesian students living in Maastricht, a chance to enjoy a free Indonesian meals that shall not to be missed. 

I met Rio and Kenneth at the Centraal Station, the three of us then took bus number 5 to Tante Jane's. She lives near my old dorm in Brouwersweg. A clean and simple house in a good neighborhood. Having only met her twice, first when I came to the Ayu's farewell and twice when we traveled to Den Haag for Lebaran, she still doesn't remember my name. Oh well...

The three of us were the first to come. Then Mas Doni and Ka There arrived by bike, followed by the rest of the group which is almost the entire of Maastricht students minus Mita and Mbak Wulan. Among them were the MSM MBA's trio Mone, Billy and Dina. Tante Jane has prepared a long table for us to eat together and three of them were sitting next to me. They talked about their plan the next day when suddenly Mone turned to me, "Do you want to come with us?"

"Uhm...I have classes on Monday," I said. 

"C'mon, study hard, play harder,"  Ka There joint the conversation.

I looked at their faces and see that I had say too many NOs in the past, so I agreed to come. Actually I wasn't thrilled with the idea of travelling Germany during the end of fall. Germany is colder than the Netherlands, so without a winter jacket that I kept postponing to buy...I would find myself freezing! But they needed the fifth person (Kenneth would also joint us) for the 7 EUR day-pass train ticket.
So there I am with my warmest spring coat on a 6 AM Sunday morning at Maastricht Centraal. Thankfully that day the weather was not too cold although it's a rainy day in Germany. 

We firstly took Bus No. 50 that goes directly to Aachen. Our original plan was to go straight to Dusseldorf to see the largest Esprit Factory Outlet there (Mone...Billy...shop?? :D). But we missed the train that goes directly to Dusseldorf. So we took the train that went to Koln first which turned to be a good decision...I love Koln (Cologne)! Cologne is great, I like the city's zentrum, Cologne has really nice views.

By taking a bus from Cologne we finally stepped our foot in Dusseldorf and visited Esprit's headquarter in Ratingen. The place is super big and impressive but too bad it was closed. The good side was, me-Mone-Billy-Dina and Kenneth could have the entire factory (as big as football stadium) by ourselves. Yeah!

We spent the night in the crowded Dusseldorf zentrum, visiting winter stalls that reminded us that Christmas is near.

Having spent one third of the journey in a train, bus and a subway, we all didn't have the chance to eat properly the entire day. We only had some bread, canned drinks and stroopwafels  to satisfy our hungry stomach.  Yet the night was no longer young when we arrived back in Maastricht.

There is love and hate relationship between Cologne and Dusseldorf || Historically, there was a kind of hostility between the citizens of Cologne and Dusseldorf || Cologne is the 4th largest city in Germany || Dusseldorf is Germany's 7th largest city || Get this guys: order Altbier beer in Dusseldorf and Kolsch beer in Cologne, don't get them mixed up || It took 632 years to build Cologne Cathedral so the immensely large church can hold 40.000 people (lucky we made the time to visit the church during our short stop that day in Cologne) || Both Cologne and Dusseldorf lie along Rhine river || Cologne was a Roman city with a strong ties to Rome and Catholicism and has an easy-going vibe || Dusseldorf started from a small village, raised into a prominent economic hub and becomes a modern city with the largest Japanese community in Germany.   

German is the largest beer consumer in the world after Irish || Germany was known as the Holy Roman Empire and Kingdom of Prussia || There 300 variants of bread in Germany || There 1000 kinds of sausage in Germany || The Christmas tree (called Tannenbaum) tradition came from Germany || The first Oktoberfest was a wedding celebration for Prince Ludwing of Bavaria and it actually started in September || The first printed book was in German ||  Germany has over 400 zoos || Most taxis in Germany are Mercedez Benz (woohoo!), and Karl Benz along with Gottlieb Daimler are the creator of first motor-driver vehicles || Germans are known as brainy people, there are more than 100 German nobel laureates including the world's most recognized scientist, Albert Einstein || Who says Adi is Indonesian name? It actually a nickname from Adolf as Adolf 'Adi' Dassler, who founded Adidas || Adi Dassler's brother, Rudolf Dassler, founded Puma || The world's tallest cathedral is in Rome? Uhm no, Ulm, where Einstein was born || Beethoven, Bach, Schumann, Wagner, and Strauss might have established their names in Vienna but they were all Germans. 

22 November, 2009

A Saturday Spent in Den Haag

This time I went with Cumaziye. During our class Halloween party Cumaziye and I talked about our separate plan to go see other cities in Holland. And so there we went on a nice Saturday morning when the air was clear and the sky was blue. Lucky for us because a good weather is a rare in a November.    

I have been to Den Haag before, with a bunch of Indonesian students from Maastricht during Ied-Dul Fitr day. I only went for a chance to eat a proper Indonesian food that I have been missing my arrival in the Netherlands. At the time we went straight to Wassenaar, the area where Indonesian Embassy located. We only stopped in two places during that trip, one is Den Haag Centraal and the second one is Utrecht Centraal aka. spoor station.

Fortunately during this trip I had more chance to see Den Haag, exploring the Plein, and ate at V&D cafe'. V&D is a department store similar to Metro. As Cumaziye is also likes walking around, we were exploring the city with our foot. Without taking a bus or a tram at all.

DEN HAAG FACTS: Den Haag is famous for its Madurodam - a mini version of Holland || Amsterdam is the capital of Netherlands but Den Haag is the residence of Dutch King and former Queens as well as the centre of Dutch parliament and government || Home to 150 international institutions including foreign embassies, the Hague holds reputation as the International City and is known as 'Judicial Capital of the World' ||  Almost each cities in Europe has 'City Centrum' or a city center where shopping area, government building and church can be found within walking distant, in Den Haag this city centruum is in the Plein area || Every year in Den Haag, Indonesians from all over the Netherlands and even Belgium have the opportunity to visit Tong Tong Fair, the largest and famous Indonesian food bazaar in the Netherlands.  

21 November, 2009

Deeper Than Death

Gorgeous words by Jeffrey Eugenides & beautiful film by Sofia Coppola

   They made us participate in their own madness, because we couldn't help but retrace their steps, rethink their thoughts, and see that none of them that led to us. We couldn't imagine the emptiness of a creature who put a razor to ther wrists and opened her veins, the emptiness and the calm. And we had to smear our muzzles in their last traces, of mud marks on the floor, trunks kicked out from under them, we had to breathe forever the air of the rooms in which they killed themselves. It didn't matter in the end how old they had been, or that they were girls, but only that we had loved them, and they hadn't heard us calling, still do not hear us, up here in the tree house, with our thinning hair and soft bellies, calling them out of those rooms where they went to be alone for all time, alone in suicide, which is deeper than death.

Beautiful image from the film

17 November, 2009


Darling, they can have their universe
We'll be in the dirt designing stars...

These photos were taken on my way home from the Centrum after meeting Olivia for a nice simple dinner at McDonalds :). I always love the small alleys in Maastricht's Centrum. Maastricht is truly a pretty kind, and looking even more special during nightfall.

07 November, 2009

Her Kind by Anne Sexton

I have gone out, possessed witch
haunting the black air, braver at night;
dreaming evil, I have done my hitch
over the plain houses, light by light:
lonely thing, twelve fingered, out of mind
a woman like that is not a woman, quite.
I have been her kind

04 November, 2009

i'm not there

After In the Mood for Love; Dancing in the Dark; Me, You, Them; Pasir Berbisik, and Persepolis, I'm Not There is another film presents beautiful images great for our eyes. In several parts the film can do a bit of effectiveness, but by the end I bow in for an applause since great performers and neat images have it all covered.